it was the tdv farewell party yesterday and yeah.. it was in a bunker and the atmosphere was for the first moment scary but great. the alcohol was low priced, so i could drink bit more ;D i forgot the most, what we were talkin about, just know it was funn

so, master was online! but do you think he'd hit me back? no! hell, i hate him for doing all this to me!
i really try to forget him, and try to ignore all the dreams of him, try to forget it and yeah.. it may work, don't think too much bout him but i alw

so, i'm bored.. maybe i can tell you two dreams i had from master?
the first was, he told me his farther died and have to leave the next day and i just sat there with him and cried.. then he asked me, why i didn't tell him before.. i think it was a 'blin

farewell.. i really wondered that i didn't cry.. maybe it's because i know, he'll stay till april... (he had his last shift in this café yesterday).. i try to keep the best memories and forget the bad..

i was drunk.. drank too much and still feel the alcohol. i feel prickles in my hands and feet.. still have a cold and my voice is dead and i have to work tomorrow in a callcenter! how shall i do this with that shitty voice? hell.. but i have to. i need the fuc.king money...

and i miss janine.. forunatly she's back to town today. janine is one of my best friends and of course jess. they were the only one who really listened to me, understood my problems und always were there when i needed a shoulder to lean on.
after that big disappointing with tobi i'm really proud to know my girls.

so cheers, my dears. *adL*

so, i think i just start with a songtext which is from 'the phantom of the opera' and describes how i feel actually.

"think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye.
remember me once in a while, please promise me you'll try.
when you find