so, i think i just start with a songtext which is from 'the phantom of the opera' and describes how i feel actually.

"think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye.
remember me once in a while, please promise me you'll try.
when you find, that once again, you long to take your heart back and be free.
if you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me."

people you've to know for this entry (just nicknames):
1. master
2. emo

master will leave and i really hope he'd spare a thought for me but i don't think that this is possible... hell.. he's a MAN! and sadly someone who flirts with everyone.
but funny to know that emo realized that. i don't know him and saw him the 2nd time today. but just one look and he knew everything. i felt that.. have to say, emo is nice. real nice cause he cared for me. and after seeing master, i just have to take one look at emo and i smile.. it's weird but you know this feeling, when you see someone and you just think that he's an old good friend.

i'm invited to masters farewell party, just told him that i can't be there cause of another party and i don't know anyone there.. i don't wanna sit there alone and talking to noone.. i really made bad experience. am waiting for a response, he was online but didn't reply. now i try the best to forget him cause after all i can't and don't wanna be hurt anymore by seeing him flirting with 1423423 other girls. (well who wants to?)

so keep your fingers crossed for me!