so, i'm bored.. maybe i can tell you two dreams i had from master?
the first was, he told me his farther died and have to leave the next day and i just sat there with him and cried.. then he asked me, why i didn't tell him before.. i think it was a 'bling' that lets him know that i love him..
the second dream: on that day when he had to leave i met up with him at hauptbahnhof but somehow it looked like ostkreuz.. i stood there, waited for him, there he was.. totally ugly with a weird jacket but i didn't care. he was just talking and talking and i forget everything but somehow he put his arm around me, and when we waited there for the s-train, he hugged me and we just cuddled.. felt well in his arms, didn't want to wake up.. well, have to and when i woke up, i remember his eyes.. his eyes and i think this dream told me that i can't be lucky with him even if he would stay, but people who know me, know, that i don't care. if i want something i have to get it and i don't care about the consequences.
maybe that's why deecan always think i always get the person i love. but dee, sadly i have to say i don't, of course i don't. if i'd always get the person i want, i'd be perfect but i'm not and nobody and nothing is. eeeeeven i have to say, there was nobody yet who really turned me down. okay, maybe one person but i think he was the only one. i don't know why cause i just was two weeks with him in a relationship. but it was one of the badest time i had, well, master topped it.

i can tell so much right now but i don't know what.. think it's better for me to go to sleep, but first i have to phone to dee.

geht kacken ihr schweinebacken or
have a crap you butthead

;)